Friday, October 29, 2004

Seeing you

I have wanderend near and far
seen all seas and lands, animals and birds
And I found that beauty itself
Cannot be described with mere words

Now opening my email inbox
Seeing pictures that I have received last
Face to face with your smile
I have become...
Speechless

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Untiltled 2

It happens again.......
Time after time.....
I wonder about you....

Here in the rain...
Hoping youre fine...
Praying for a clue...

Missing in vain...
Disregarded that I´m...
My blues a faded hue...

Just a forgotten stain...
Some accidental grime...
Unnoticed dew...

How can I explain...
Through saying or rhyme...
As raindrops fall anew...

That I fear in vain...
Yet the words I must find...
To ask why are we through...

Replies that abstain...
Unaswered for no crime...
Why? What did I do?

Questions pound my brain...
Didnt you get any line?
Any email has reached too?

I cant bear this strain...
No greeting or even a hi..
please answer...
Love you...

Sunday, October 24, 2004

ALONE

She thinks love is being back together with me
The other knows me just by my voice, webcam and name
...yet midnight, Im alone again...

Should I try the arms of a lustful youth
or the distance of hope, yearning and pain?
...30 minutes pass by...

I sit in need, counting every single minute
no message or a call.. wtf.. am I going insane?
...an hour past midnight....

Is it foolish that I still just close my eyes
and decide keep waiting for both in vain?
...2 hours, no "Ju" or "July"....

Why am I still awake, waiting, desperate to make
Past mistakes that are dated to be repeated over again?
...2 and a half hours... why....

is one the world´s joy to me, is my smile yet far
the other; my only comfort that used to remain?
... three hours high....

she for whom I am all existence and life for her
or for whom I would happily give my soul and life in vain?
... four and I say bye....

Why am I always rewarded with sadness
and also loneliness and pain?


(written Saturday at 4 in the morning)

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Lovesick

Livia Livia Livia
What did you do?
Drive this soul crazy
Thinking of you...
Why Ive cried and screamed
Whined and mumbled
Yet here I am beneath
My bedcovers huddled
And I am tired of seeing
that Im of no worth to you
Yet why do I keep doing this
What must I do?

lol... wrote this while trying to call the venusian goddess know as Livia... if youre reading this... see how I become when I cant reach you? hehe..

Lucifer´s Lament

Rain´s falling down over us
Her hair wet, her lips opening ever so lightly
To drink the water of the Gods...
I looked at her Dark eyes,
By such black tresses framed
I told her that I LOVED HER
And as she gave me that smile
The thunder struck
like someone remembering something

Intro

Come idiots that walk upon the ground and leave the wise
Let´s talk of things certain before all hope flies
Taht darkness shall come and all shall become lies
And the condemned soul that is lost for once forever dies

Why all the saints and sinners who have discussed
Of God and Devil, Good and Evil so learnedly thrust
Like the foolish Prophets come forth spreading his trust
But now its too late
As DARKNESS approaches
All shall be forgotten
All shall become dust

(this here was an introduction to a comic I was doing called Dark)

The Slacker´s Defense

I have lived my life away
Ihave dreamed half of it away
As the wise and mighty had their say
I was just happy to enjoy my day

I haven´t built any road or bridges
Neither did I right any wrong
Hell I never had my fifteen minutes of fame
All I ever made was this song

Some people call me a looser
Others may call me a disgrace
But if God himself gave me back my youth
Hell, once again it would all go to waste

Some have liberated opressed nations
Some had others brougth to their knees
But have any counted the grass beneath their feet
Or watched a tree shed all it´s leaves

There are those who know everything everywhere
From everyplace to everytime
Yet how many have listened the winds telling its tales
Or really tasted a very good wine

THE BAR

Here, at the entrance to Jahanam
The eternal pit of suffering that is hell
There is a last stop for the damned
The pub owned by good old Al

The bouncers are horny demons
The waitresses from erotic ightmares
Behind the counter is Al
Preaparing drinks under his customer´s stares

The jukebox´s playing Sinatra
He pretends not to notice the empty tip jar
As he pours a torani with tonic
A murdered politician who never got far

He mixes a bacadi majita with rum
Icy cold and straight from the fridge
For the junkie mom who ran from her abusive
Husband; by jumping off a bridge

A chivas continental for the bitter young poet
Who never allowed himself love or relation
A martini for the rich architect, gone too soon
Killed by a falling brick from his own creation

Al Serves a South Paw for the everyday looser
Striking the lottery numbers was a dream to him
Then a Double Scotch for the guy beside
Who did actually win

Old Al sees it all, the festering humanity
The poor and the rich
The strong and the weak
Going through the endless cycle
For him everydays just a big repeat

Getting them what they want so that they can feel
That one thing in their life was fulfilled, by Al
Then when the closing time´s come
He sends them, packing to Hell

Islam´s SHAME

Shes crying behind a veil
Tries to ignore fear and goes to sleep
Just yesterday she was fifteen years
Now sixteen with a husband to meet

Since young she has been told
She is a girl and thus its the will of God
That she´s to be used by one thrice her age
Yet the first wife she´s not

Another place, another girl only nine
Raped by an uncle, pain as her innocence tears
Then blamed for corrupting him, a holy man
Then was killed by stoning.. who coares?

A face disfigured for not being covered
By whose will did the thrower of acid act?
Who gave cowards the idea that evil comes from
Beauty, and why didnt anyone react?

Is an innocent question by the neighour´s boy
A reason to end life, just for talking to a stranger?
It is called "honour killing"; the father says
Is this honour? Acting on ignorance and anger?

Wooried last words of the last prophet
Whispered last breath, forgotten by many a `Ulamas mind
"BE KIND TO WOMEN, BE KIND TO WOMEN..."
Whats wrong with Islam?
Have we gone deaf?
Have we gone blind?


What is

What is life?
But something that´s lost when youre dead..
What is love?
But something that fucks with your head...
What is light?
But something the blind will never get...
What is song?
But some noise intelligently bred...
What is freedom?
But some illusion shed...
What is hate?
If not igonorance followed by regret...
What is innocence?
If not a child just beget...
What is hunger?
But something one feeds bread?
What is lust?
And why does it end up with you in bed...
What is dreams?
If all that hounds me is nightmares and dread...
What is luck and fate
What have they got to do with me?
What is self esteem?
What is personality?
What is faith?
What is Trinity?
What is time?
What is infinity?

Homeless Man

You there
Looking at me
Tell me
What do you see?
Maybe it is
The pain in my face
Is that why
You walk away?

No I dont
Blame you
Hell I too
Was Like you
Until I
Lost my girl
No note on bed
Not a clue

Now Im just
A homeless man

Her face haunts me
I never forget
I lost everything
As I drove me mad
Bottle beside me
Only comfort I get
Park bench, a blanket
of angry glare's my bed

I'm just
A homeless man